Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I'm being bullied by two of my professors...?

.it's starting to get real bad as it's gotten to the student body and it seems that all these people I don't even know have decided that I'm a loser and have took to some pretty abusive treatment of me. So my question is this: what can someone do to endure through this kind of situation where it feels like the whole world is against you and coming in on you without losing who you are; without hanging your head. It's real hard, man; all these people I don't even know think they know me and think I'm a person to disrespect, gossip on, give looks to, the whole nine yards. How can you cope with that for too long without seriously being affected? I mean, I feel like I'm gonna cry with the way these people are so disrespectful towards me. They talk about me like I'm not even there like I'm an idiot or something. It's real bad with the girls and the gays at my school; they are the worst. These girls that aren't even really interested in me try to tease me to get me to try and flirt and then when I try to talk to them they just shut me down but in way that seems a little malicious like they're getting a kick out of seeing me in pain from being rejected by them. I've just gotten to the point where I'm like I'm not even gonna try to talk to any girls. I started wearing a ring and that still doesn't stop them some of these girls are married themselves. It's like, what kind of person do they think I am? That I'd try and talk to a married woman? And the gay guys think because I've been rejected by some of the girls that I'm just gonna turn gay or something so they try and talk to me and of course I'm civil about it I'll talk but not flirt I'M NOT GAY!!, so they get offended that I don't turn gay for them and they partake in the gossip and disrespect more voraciously than anyone! It's sad, really. I'm the type of person that just tries to mind my own business and just do my own thing be respectful and thats it go home live my life. But these people are SO nosey! They just try to insert themselves into your life i,e. My proffesors and when you don't let them or if you call them out on their bs they go straight from 0 to 60 mph; do not p go, do not collect 200 dollars; they try to ruin your life. The ego's on these people are insane! How they even get into the doors of the clrooms is beyond me. And me?, it's sad to say, I'm powerless to do anything. I'm a wallflower, I stick to myself. I'm not here to become part of a gang. Of course I want to meet friends; of course I want a girlfriend but I'm not willing to sell out to get them, I'm not willing to throw anybody under the bus and I'm definitely not willing to be some creep as it seems the girls want me to be. I try to be sweet and they treat me like a creep. I'm not willing to try to be a player. because I will come off like a creep because I'm not a player. plus I have social anxiety BIG TIME and this only makes it worse by like a million, for real. WTF do these people want? Why can't they just leave guy alone? I know why, though. It's because I am smart. I can think critically, I can see through peoples fake bullshit public personas right through to there cold corrupted selfish caniving hearts. and to top that off I'm a beast. I'm over six foot tall, muscular, ripped and athletic; I know how to handle myslef. And I don't just let people walk all over me.These sbags see that and it kills them. It kills them to see a strong independant minded man thinking for himself doing what he knows is right. That can't stand to see that! Who does he think he is! is what they think. Doesn't he know his place? is what they ask themselves. Nope! is how I answer. My place is determined by me; by my efforts; by my drive; by my accomplishments My story is being written by me. I am a real person I have real emotions I have real convictions i have real hopes and dreams I have a real vision. And I'm not willing to trade any of those things for your acceptance for your approval for your gift of the right to p. I'm taking my right to p because it's mine! I don't owe any of you people ****! And I am proud of that. I wont play your greasy game of favor for favor. Your favor is the paycheck you recieve and the opportunity to continue your scholarship. You have no right or authority in the personal affairs of students period. Your social engineering is flat creepy, period. And should get you fired, but you are smart people and do rub the backs of the right people so you continue to act as though you are in a superior position, you continue to relish the power over your students that you take for selves and you abuse it for your own gain whatever that may be. Your students see the liberties that you take the ways that operate and they look up to you, they mimmick your actions they think that

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