I chat wd this guy through a fake id.. is it fine?

i love ths guy n he was like flirting wd me whn I use to talk to him but watever time i had wd him it ws special n no1 cud replace it.. all I cn say is I hust cant manage to think abt anyone else.. ihv tried also.. So like aftr 2 years i approached him he ignored me n said no we cant b frnds.. so i decided to chat wd a fake id. its gng really good.. only chats.. even he likes my company.. but d prob is he likes d fake gurl n not me.. n ths fake gurl is married.. bt i get d same feeling whch i use to get while chatting wd him 3yrs back.. he likes my nature, the way but y cant he like the real me? my frnds say ur self respect shd b more imp bt hw can u imagine to spend ur life wd some1 u dnt love.. so i thoght tht if i b good frnd of him thn if i tell him abt my reality he mite nt get tht pissed.. do uthink im rite?? Boys wat do u think abt it? experieced smthing like ths?